snow balls on a warm summer night..
one day i passed by a very dark and empty street.. i hear nothing but sounds of crickets and i see nothing but lights of fireflies..
as i throw my attention on one side of the said street, i saw this little girl. then suddenly light conquered the whole place..
i saw her pale white feet bleeding.. and her teary eyes full of pain and suffering..
i tried to reach out for her and ask her about what happened.. but she replied with an innocent look, and bowed her head again
i tried to ask her more questions.. but she seemed like mute that even a single word didn’t came out her lips..
she stepped back„ and said, “be careful with whatever you do, think first.. so you won’t just notice that everyone’s trying to simply leave you and cut all their connections with you”..
i couldn’t really understand what the girl was trying to say.. i just sat down thinking of what can i do to make her lips smile..
i stared at her.. knowing that she is full of loneliness and fear. and that she could never be whole again..
i closed my eyes and started to reminisce.. a smile went out of nowhere making me feel like an idiot smiling alone..
almost an hour, my eyes were closed. and the only thing that made me open it was.. the memory that i consider as a nightmare, the thing that i wish i could erase from my memory.. the thing that made me suffer at the hands of loneliness and judgement..
again i looked at the girl.. she’s looking at me too. i’m wondering what she’s thinking.. until i noticed a man. wearing all black.. with bloods and a smile. he wanted to take the girl with him but she refused.. the man persuades the girl. then she looked at me.. and asked me, “what are you going to do now?”
i couldn’t understand her.. but i told her to hold on.
the man left..
the girl looked back at me.. paced and paced till she reached me. she looked at my eyes and i saw my reflection. that was the only time that i noticed that the little girl was like the girl in her eyes..
she whispered into my ears.. “i hope you made the right decision this time.. because you could never bring back the time”..
she entered my body and i felt like i’m carrying something really heavy that i can’t even have a minute to breathe..
i prayed. i remembered that God was the only one who was left with me when everybody left me alone. and i promised that day that God would be my greatest priority above all..
snow balls will never exist on a warm summer night. but God will always be inside our hearts, without us knowing that He is thinking about us. and that God will forever exist, no matter what season it is.. no matter when and where.
God will always be in our hearts to continuously guide us and help us.. God is the only One who could give us what we want—the eternal love.
..coffeepie